LOL

so we're out camping and telling SCARY STORIES OOOOOH
but nothing tall and "dear lord let me feed you a sandwich" showed up yet

ah well
i guess lexi was right, nonexistant is better tho, i suppose

she's curled up in her sleeping bag and refuses to talk to me, haha XD

typing this off my iPhone, btw
love lexi so much, got me this for my bday a while ago
pure gold

but yeah
just updating
gonna go take a leak now, and now the interweb knows! joy!


so yeah
the jessmeister, OUT
>:)

Decided

Going camping this Friday with Jesse. Mom okay'd it, so yeah.

I'm setting myself up for disaster, aren't I?

Yeah, thought so.

Whatever, this'll at least give me a chance to get over my irrational fear of a non-existing creature. Facing fears and all that shiz.

Plus we're practically sisters, having met in that "SINGLE PARENT BOOHOO CRY HERE" afterschool class in...uh...
First grade? I think?

Whatever the case, we met really young and I know she's got my back.
(I hope...>>)

But yeah. I'll see if I can find my camera and I'll take video of us crapping our pants in fear, lol

~~Lexi~~

So I kind of want to read up more and more on this stuff

But I don'tttt at the same timeeeee
whine whine whineeee

But yeah I just want to read up more and I don't and I do? Bluh.

It's like that saying; "Curiousity killed the cat."

I really dun wanna be a living example of that, so, you know what?

Going to bed. No more research on this ever again.

Good. Now that that's settled, I feel a lot lighter on my feet.
bed now~

So I went back to babysitting Marie today

Poor girl...she's back from the hospital, but she still has that horrible hacking cough. :(

I've just been reading to her and talking to her, really. She's very quiet as of late, though. She's also started to have bad dreams, poor dear. Her cousin tells me she wakes up screaming, making her throat even worse. D': Poor baby.
Speaking of her cousin, apparently, being sick- hospital sick- isn't weird for her, and that she's rather sickly, which is one of the reasons that her parents are meaning to homeschool her. I find that simply awful, don't you? She's probably gonna be all alone her for most of her life. I kind of cringe at the thought. I quite like being around people.

Plus, her dad will probably be moving out soon because of the whole divorce thing, so it'll just be her and the mom in this huge house...with only Marcelle to visit. eeeek...


Other news, other news... Jesse made a blog! XD http://jesseiswatchingyou.blogspot.com/
This should be...amusing. To say the least.
It says "Lexi Steele" posted it because she doesn't wanna make her own google account to make a blogger, haha...XD If she finds another website that she finds suitable- probably not gonna happen anytime soon, considering her pickiness with websites, lol- we'll let you guys know.
For now, she's using my account.

Apparently I'm "WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too nice" lol
also UGH STOP BEING SO CRYPTIC AND IRRITATING.
and telling stories
and acting insane

the act got old in sixth grade, Jess. The only reason you have any friends *coughtotallynotjustmecough* is because I saw through your facade.


Bluh, whatever. It's the internet, she can act however the hell she feels like. I may act like a caretaker to her at school, but internet =/= school.


Uh...I've watched MLP:FIM? It's amusing and adorable, haha!

On that note, Lexi out! <3

~~Lexi Steele~~

PS...Still looking for pictures alksdfjlaskdjfasjf >T

Jesse. SHUT UP.

All she ever talks about any more is that STUPID slenderdude stuff!
It's driving me nuts!
I don't even care that she's probably reading this! In fact, I'm glad that she's probably reading this!
JESSE.
I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT.





She's taking the whole thing waaaaaaaaaay to seriously. Next thing I know, she'll be telling me that she's seen him. Puhhhlease.

Holy crap

First off, didn't update yesterday because Marie was still sick. I mean, really sick. 105 degree fever go to hospital sick. In fact, I didn't go today, either; still in the hospital. I'm worried.

But that's not the holy crap.

This is.

So this morning, I woke up, did whatever I needed too, and was drinking my orange juice when I absently happened to glance at the paper.
Blaring headline: "Steven (lastnameremoved); The Missing Batter".

Cue spit take.


I quickly flipped to the article and read the whole thing.
Basic gist of it is that Steven vanished about a week ago, and the police have been looking.
Yesterday, they found something in an old warehouse.
A baseball bat. His baseball bat; it had his name on it. Covered in blood and black paint.

I mean, holy crap. Poor kid. Stuff like this doesn't just happen out of the blue, you know?

His parents are, understandably, hysterical. I was too, for a minute or two. Crying oceans.

But D:
I remember this kid. He was slightly irritating, in that "I'm so clever and funny" narcissistic way, but he had this huge goofy bright grin, and the prettiest brown eyes...And over all, he was just...an average kid, an average boy, from what I could tell from babysitting him- more just keeping an eye on him, he was older- for almost a year.

He'd have just turned nine a few weeks ago.


But why would something like this happen? I suppose it's just random, but why him? Why a little kid with a huge, bright future? What would possess some random psycho to do this to a kid?!

It really makes me think, y'know? Life, death, philosophy...


I get the feeling I'll be up all night thinking.




Anyway, Lexi out.




Steven, I hope wherever you are, you're happier. You may not be dead, but all the evidence seems to point to that.
You were loved and will be missed. <3

I just realized this is kind of becoming a personal blog

I hope that's all right with you guys. I'd forgotten how theraputic keeping anything remotely diary-like was. I used to keep a diary, when I was little, and it was great. I put a ton of stuff in there. I believe it's in my closet now. I should dig it out one day and take a peek at what grade-school me thought like.

Anyway, I promised pictures, and lo and behold.














In case you can't read it- I know it took me a little while to decipher- it reads:
Poor LittLe Steven won't be playing much BALL any more
I inferenced a few words from the context and whatnot, so I may be wrong a little.
Also, I believe that smudge in the corner next to the question mark...not really sure, but it could be a heart? Again, not 100%, just guessing here.
And the handprints.
There's some- paint?- on the back, too, like whoever did it picked it up.

But yeah, blaming this on those kids. =n= Thank GOD I didn't babysit them that one time, I was sick, I think.
Count my blessings, haha...

Still >T
It wouldn't be that hard to guess that Steven liked baseball- I mean, the original picture was of him playing baseball, lol- but seriously.

I'm still looking for the other pictures. So pissed off. >O

Ugh.
Anyway, in an attempt to end this on a kind of happy note, here's Marie's.



















You wouldn't believe how irritated she got at the lawyer drawing, haha...Ended up scribbling out his face before she drew anything before I could stop her. "But I can't get it too look like him!"
Oh, Marie. y u so sweet.

Oh and she has a problem with her "E"s, lolol. X)


Anyway, I'm going to go to bed soon. Early, I know, right?
I'm actually going to try to get sleep. >T

Wish me luck!

Sorry again :(

I was about to scan it, but woefully, my mother is using the only computer in the house with a scanner for her work, so tomorrow, then.

So Marie was sick with a horrible cough today, I read her stories and made her tomato soup and grilled cheese. I guess all that running around was just a before-sick thing, haha.

But yeah. Sleep is still bad, but what else is new. :|


Also I've read up more on that Slenderdude and WHOOP. The more you know, the more likely you're the next target!
I mean, I know he's not real, but really, put that at the beginning of the research stuff so that you can back out before you get too scared? >T


ugh jess i hate you for this so much
there goes the little sleep i could have achieved tonight.

Ughhh.

So today was cooler out. Had to wear pants. It's weird going back to school and stuff. X(

I didn't get much sleep last night, so I was twitchy and irritable all day today, and babysitting didn't help. For whatever reason, she was totally hyper and screamy today. It was awful.

Once I got her calmed down, though, she did draw me a picture. Me, her, and some dude in a suit. At least, I'm pretty sure it's a suit. Hard to tell with stick figures.

I asked Marcelle about the dude, and she quietly told me that it was probably the divorce lawyer, who was really nice to Marie. Apparently her parents don't get on very well any more.
Who knew.

Deja vu much, haha...

Anyway, I'll scan and upload on Monday- away for the weekend, down near the bottom of the entry explanation. Too late and I don't want to leave my room right now, the reason for I will conclude this entry with.

But this is the ughhhhh part.
I went home and under my bed to put the drawing in the box, and, get this- the box was empty, except for one drawing. The drawing from my first baby-sitting.

Except...it was...altered.
I'll scan it on Monday too.
I don't....

My theory is this; yesterday, when I was at Marie's, my mom's friend/work friend came over with her two little boys. They basically had free reign of the house because my mom and her friend were discussing srs work stuff or something.
Anyway, I came home and a lot of stuff in my room was messed up. :|

But ughhh.
I love those drawings.
Irritating small children are always super irritating, no? >T




Anyway, some personal updates; my mom is starting to worry about me because idk loosing sleep (normal) and paranoia and i totally blew up about loosing the drawings.
So she's taking us away for the weekend. I'm going up to Boston with her to visit some places and relatives. Just for the weekend, so I'm not babysitting tomorrow.

As for not wanting to leave my room- This is totally Jesse's fault.
I was on my IM, minding my own business, when she sends me a link "Oh hey look Slenderman!"
SO I was like "Wha?" and watched a bunch of this Marble Hornets thing and she sent me a bunch of blogs and uh

yeah
not leaving my room >T

(I may totally comment on some blogs though. Just to play along and stuff, 'cause some of these are written really well. like the other operator and the one with Zeke Starn or something)

But yeah
Gonna scan the stuff Monday and update this entry with it- or maybe make a new one, idk- and browse the internet for the rest of the night because now I'm way too paranoid to sleep ughhhhhhh.

Logs!

So it's going preeeetty well. A few annoying things, no biggie.


Well, I went to Marie's house Monday after school, like I promised. Since school lets out for me about two, and it's near her house, I just walked there. The situation was that I would walk, and her cousin would drive me home when she got home at about seven. My mom's okay with me missing dinner at home for about a month, 'cause the money is great and everything. So I went over on Monday afternoon with my crapload of homework to do there, because Marie's a total sweetie and she could preoccupy herself with drawing or something while I did some homework.

Anyway, I went over. Did I mention that her house- well, more mansion, jesus this house was huge- was in the middle of a huge forest? The walk was nice and stuff, but the woods were...I dunno. Off somehow? It's probably just my paranoia from A) lack of sleep B) That warning notice that my school sent around about wild dogs in the area and to be careful and stuff and C) It was really dark out for two in the afternoon because of the trees and a lot of clouds.
So I totally flipped my shit and ran about half a mile carrying three textbooks and all my school stuff, haha...

So I arrived at the house and used the spare key to let myself in. Her cousin- Marcelle- leaves at about one fifty, trusting the fact that I'll be there in about ten minutes, plus the whole isolated in the woods with no one for miles even knowing it exists. I mean, this thing is totally isolated; I thought that it was all just woods, I would never of guessed there was a house in that mess of trees.

Well, the driveway was about a mile and a half long, and I used the spare key...I'm repeating myself again, ugh.
Anyway, I let myself in and Marie was drawing in the den, which took me a fair amount of time to find, because, like I said, huge house. I may draw a floor plan for reference for myself just so I don't get lost.
Well, we hung out in the den for a while, ate in the kitchen- I made pizza bagels- and I read some stories to her.

For all the richness this family has, they don't have TV or electronics of any kind; All they have are their work laptops, which are supplied by their job anyway. They're some kind of neo-hippy or something, according to Marcelle. Okay then.

So she drove me home at seven, and I went to bed at nine after some reading and music and a shower. I fell asleep quickly, surprisingly, 'cause I forgot to take my sleeping pills, but jesus CHRIST, I've never had a weirder dream.
I was in Marie's house, and I was running from room to room shouting for her, totally lost. I think there was some kind of animal chasing me, maybe a wolf? But I found Marie dead in the foyer, tied to one of the staircase banisters. I ran out the front door and into the woods, down the driveway, as fast as I could, I could hear the animal behind me and-
Everything blacked out and I heard static? Like, television static. It was weird.
Then I woke up, found that it was two in the morning, and couldn't fall back asleep. Then I took a pill and almost overslept the alarm.

Anyway, that dream kind of ruined most of my day, so going to Marie's was a bit of a relief. It was sunny, so that was nice. Felt weird going up the driveway again, pinned it on lack of sleep. No big deal, right?
So the whole thing went great again, I went home.

I took my medicine last night and went to bed later than normal, nearly eleven. I had the same sort of dream- running, dead Marie, woods, animal, static noise- and I "woke up" again, only slower and more groggily. I was half awake and realized...someone was under my bed? I could hear them rifling through something.
So I slowly reached over to my bedside table, grabbed my lamp, and swung it down on them with all my might.

Then I woke up. Like, actually woke up. No creature, lamp was where it was supposed to be.
I checked under my bed just in case, everything was there...mostly old clothes packed in plastic containers, and my drawing box of all the pictures was still there, too.

I'm not too worried about this whole thing. I get bad dreams a lot. Insomniaaaaa! *shakefist*

Anyway, it was only about midnight, so I went back to bed and had a pretty good night's sleep.

Today went much the same as the last two days. Marie's not really the "ADORABLE FUNNY" type, but she's sweet. I don't really have any stories, though. :(
Well, I say the same...I didn't feel apprehension going up her driveway like the past two days, so I guess it was just sleep. That's nice.

Anyway, tomorrow I'll have her draw a picture for me. I'll scan it for you guys, she does the most adorable kid stuff, hehe~
In fact, maybe I'll put up some of the other pictures, too! :D

We'll see!!



So this is going pretty great!

<3

~~Lexi Steele~~

Ahhh, guys, I'm so sorry!

What with the hurricane and school starting, I've had absolutely no time to update this. :(

Because of that, I actually didn't babysit for that first week or anything, and their trip was postponed to this coming week. So basically, I'll be sitting from the 12th of September to the 3rd of October.
So...uh...yeah.

School's been fine, life's been good...My insomnia has kicked in even worse because of school, but the sleeping pills help. Also the irritating dreams, according to my doctor it's part of the insomnia so...I'm averaging at least 7 hours a night, which is great.


Annnnnyway, I'll start the log for babysitting on Monday! Cheers!

:)

~~Lexi Steele~~